I'm currently in a spiraling depression and I don't know if I even want to come out of it!! My life has taken a turn for the worst right now ever since I came back from Hawaii. I'm getting pissed off by everything around me right now and I really just can't stand where I'm at now!

To start things off, my mother(who I thought I was doing better with) has suddenly started to pick fights with me over the smallest of things. She keeps telling me that if I don't behave, she'll kick me out of the house and then turns around and tries to start something with me! I think I'm getting the message you fucking asshole!! She complains to me all the time on how she doesn't like my tattoo I want to get(Which I'll try and post a picture of later in the week), she doesn't like my hair(which I get a lot of compliments for, thank you!), she constantly rags on me for my weight(Look at yourself in a mirror lately!!) and other stupid things like that! Its driving me nuts!

The second thing is that I'm not getting support from my family for what I want to do with me life anymore! I want to become a voice actor and on the side be a graphic designer. The problem? 'You can't make a living off of art, thats a stupid field to go in. Go into law or something you know you can make money in.'!! You can make money in whatever the fuck you do! I want to be happy with what I'm doing, not worry about money! Its called 'budgeting' people! You can live happily if you just don't screw around with your money!!

Next thing, my mom is yelling at me for spending to much money lately. Hello?! I went to Maui, so yeah, I was gonna spend money down there. In fact, I spend more money on stuff for others than I actually spent on myself!! I still have to get the other parts to my cosplay, but she keeps throwing a hissy fit at me for spending to much money! I don't plan to spend money on anything except cosplay(~$100) and then Kumoricon(~$200-$300) for like the next year almost! I've got a job and I'm getting 40 hours a week now! I know how to manage my money, why can't she fucking see that!!??

Life really knows how to bite you in the ass as the wrong time. I want to move out so baddly from this home, but until I can find a roommate who will move out with me and split the rent, I'm stuck in the shitty hell-hole, I'm forced to call 'Home'.

Okay...I think I'm good for now...I appreciate anyone who even attempted to read this. I just have to rant sometimes to get this all off of my chest. Gomen Nasai to you all, and good night.